I had relaxed my own rules for some time, and last night decided to indulge in some desserts. Mind you, I have avoided them assiduously for the past 15 years. Yes, 15 years! But last night, after dinner, I had some sugary desserts. Why? I had come to realize that keeping my resolve to stay away from flour and sugar did not need to become the next obsession. I was not going to have "abstinence" become my new master. So, I made a choice and indulged.
When I awoke this morning and recalled the dramatic deviation I had taken from my usual course, I realized that perhaps that was not the best course of action. Yes, I did not need to make avoidance of flour/sugar my new master, but nor did I need to beat myself up for sidestepping it. And whatever I indulged in last night did not represent the first time ever that I sidestepped my own rules: For some time now, I have been eating whole-grain products, chips and crackers, and items that no doubt contained some sugar, so certainly my sojourn last night did not represent a capitulation. But, I also know that I do not want to let this become the slippery slope that it could be. Indulging once in a blue moon is fine; leaving all your resolutions behind is not.
After all, sticking to those resolutions has been difficult at times; and that is precisely why I feel proud of the accomplishment.
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